I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday season filled with love, laughter, and lots of good food. I’ll be back next week, but for now I leave you with my so called “resolutions” for 2015. I prefer to think of them as little reminders to myself.
For some reason I always have trouble starting out weekend recap posts. Is there any way to smoothly transition into a long ramble about everything I did over the past three days? If someone has the answer to this..please let me know?
SO..Friday was… long. If I’m being completely honest, I feel as though I’ve been in a real funk for the last couple of weeks. I’ve been trying really hard not to complain about the weather/winter but damn. SAD is a real thing, people. And I’ve got it bad. It’s like being in a permanent bad mood, which means that it seems like every single person is annoying and I feel like I’m on the verge of tears all the time. Sounds super fun, I know.
So after a long day at work on Friday, I decided I needed to snap out of the funk. So I grabbed a couple of my friends and we watched movies all evening. And had some serious real talk. It was exactly what I needed, and while I still felt iffy , I felt a whole lot better than when I woke up on Friday morning.
We ended up watching American Hustle ( my second time seeing it.. still love it! ) and Despicable Me 2. I hadn’t seen Despicable Me 2 yet, and was not disappointed. The minions make me laugh so hard, and the movie is just so damn cute ! Now that I think about it I’ve really been on an animated movie lately. Last week I went to theatres to see The Lego Movie ( yes, I did. It was GREAT! And yes, we were the oldest people in the theatres haha), then at home last week I watched The Croods, Frozen, and the aforementioned Despicable Me 2. If anything, i’m making significant progress on my goal of 100 movies in 2014!
The sun decided to shine for the first time in forever on Saturday. I even went running in shorts. SHORTS. It was glorious. And then we went geocaching. Because when the sun decides to shine in February, you better take advantage of it. I’m telling you, nothing feels better than that sun shining on my face after what seems like weeks of clouds. God is great.
If you haven’t seen Frozen yet, I’m not sure we can be friends. I’ve seen it three times now. I’m obsessed with the soundtrack. Obsessed. Can Idina Menzel sing me to sleep every night, please? Voice of a damn angel. I’m also really into any cover of ‘Let It Go’ I can get my hands on. The African Tribal cover is one of my favorites!
Sunday morning was spent at my desk, doing psychology homework. Super exciting stuff. Actually, since we are on the topic of schoolwork, can someone please yell at me to do physics? I’m currently doing a super job at procrastinating the shit out of doing any physics work. I hate physics, so therefore I’ll do three hours of other work before I’d do 30 minutes of physics. I spent 90 minutes working on a single damn question this morning. Torturous.
Sunday is my rest day from exercise, but I had to take Rosie out for a walk after a few hours of sitting at my desk. My legs felt a bit tight/sore from Saturday’s run, so a walk felt great. Plus the sunshine was doing it’s very best to come out from behind the clouds. I cannot wait until everything looks alive again.
Then Ariel and I spent the rest of the afternoon planning for Vegas. I swear you will never meet two people who have a tougher time making decisions than us. It literally took us five hours to book tickets to 1 show, and become 90% sure about what tour of the Grand Canyon to take. We booked tickets to the Cirque de Soleil show Mystere, and we are most likely going to end up taking a bus tour to the Grand Canyon. Initially we thought we might take a helicopter tour, but then I decided I didn’t want to have to sell my firstborn to afford the damn tour,so we are doing more research to find the best bus tours!
I am more than open to suggestions of must see things to do/see/ EAT in Vegas! Especially EAT!!
I can’t believe we leave for Vegas in fourteen days. Insane!
So, that was my weekend in a nutshelll. I started Monday with physics, as I previously mentioned, and then did hill repeats (outside!!!) for a workout, so I currently feel like death. However, my friend sent me this article of the best John Green quotes, and it makes me SO happy.
Do something remarkable today.
“You are the books you read, the films you watch, the music you listen to, the people you meet, the dreams you have, the conversations you engage in. You are what you take from these. You are the sound of the ocean, the breath of fresh air, the brightest light and the darkest corner.
You are a collective of every experience you have had in your life. You are every single second of every single day. So drown yourself in a sea of knowledge and existence. Let the words run through your veins and let the colors fill your mind until there is nothing left to do but explode. There are no wrong answers. Inspiration is everything. Sit back, relax, and take it all in. Now, go out and create something.”
– Jac Vanek
“It hurts to let go. Sometimes it seems the harder you try to hold on to something or someone the more it wants to get away. You feel like some kind of criminal for having felt, for having wanted. For having wanted to be wanted. It confuses you, because you think that your feelings were wrong and it makes you feel so small because it’s so hard to keep it inside when you let it out and it doesn’t coma back. You’re left so alone that you can’t explain. Damn, there’s nothing like that, is there? I’ve been there and you have too. You’re nodding your head.” — Henry Rollins
” Fresh starts. Thanks to the calendar, they happen every year. Just set your watch to January. Our reward for surviving the holiday season, is a new year. Bringing on the great tradition of New Year’s resolutions. Put your past behind you, and start over. It’s hard to resist the chance at a new beginning. A chance to put the problems of last year to bed.
Who gets to determine when the old ends, and the new begins? It’s not a day on a calendar, not a birthday, not a new year. It’s an event. Big or small. Something that changes us. Ideally, it gives us hope.
A new way of living and looking at the world. Letting go of old habits, old memories. What’s important is that we never stop believing we can have a new beginning.
But it’s also important to remember that amid all the crap are a few things really worth holding on to. ” – Grey’s Anatomy
I think it is extremely important to remember that we do not need the start of a New Year in order to make resolutions, set goals, or to change ourselves for the better. It can happen at anytime, any place, due to any one occurrence. I love resolutions, don’t get me wrong. The beginning of the New Year has always been that time of year I found myself most easily resolving to a,b, or c. Perhaps one of my resolutions for this year will be to realize I don’t need the date January 1st to make resolutions.
2013 had both bad and good times, as all years tend to. However, it was the first year I both broke someone’s heart and had my own heart broken. It was the first of my bachelors degree, and the year in which I learned to balance school, working/running my own business, and a social life. I met a lot of new people, did a lot of things that scared the shit out of me, and came out alive despite what I may have thought at the time. Overall I’d say 2013 was pretty damn good to me, considering I still have a roof over my head, food to eat, and friends and family to hug.
I want to return to blogging in 2014, I miss it. Since I got back from Florida I let myself get consumed by finals and the holidays and my insane work schedule. Blogging is challenging for me in some ways, I’ve always struggled with writing. However, as with all things, I found it becomes easier the more often I do it. Plus, I’d love to have blog posts to look back on in a years time, so many little moments are forgotten by the end of the year!
This is short & sweet, as I’m off to one last celebration with my friends before they head back to school. I hope everyone had wonderful holidays, filled with food and drink, surrounded by those they love.
Here’s to 2014!!
” I know the feeling of characoal clouds that grow from nothing and replace the everything you once knew. I know the way darkness can saturate and almost seem to repel the light you seek. I know the cold that can come, and I know the way it feels to lost the wind that holds you up. I know. I know. “. – Tyler Knott
I’m struggling. Life truly has pushed me into the darkness over the past three days. It’s when I come across quotes like these, at the most appropriate time in my life, that I realize I’ll be okay. The light will find me again, I just have to be strong and wait it out.
” Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter don’t mind. ”
– Dr. Seuss
The other day while I was browsing my twitter feed, I came across the following quote :
” and that’s the thing about people who mean everything they say. they think everyone else does too. “
I thought about that quote for the rest of the day. And the next day. And most of today. I turned the words over and over again in my mind. The more I thought about it, it became clearer to me how true it really was.
I am one of those people who mean everything they say. I’m generally quiet, and I carefully consider every word that comes out of my mouth. I will do absolutely anything for those I care about, and if I say I am going to do something, I am most definitely going to do it. And yes, I do think that everyone else means what they say.
Does that make me naive? Maybe. Has this resulted in my feelings being hurt in the past? Absolutely. Has this caused me to change how I think and feel? No.
For awhile in college, I got caught up in unnecessary drama. I changed who I was. I flaked out on friends. I said things I didn’t mean. In return, people treated me the same exact way I treated them. People said they were going to do things for me that they never did. I deserved to be treated that way, because I became someone I didn’t recognize anymore. I felt awful for what I was doing to other people.
What did I do about it?
I started treating people how I wanted to be treated.
I started meaning what I said again. I kept promises.
I’ll never again stop meaning what I say. I will also never stop thinking that other people will return the favour to me. Call me naive if you wish, but I’ve seen firsthand what happens when you become someone you are not. That being said, I’m not perfect. I slip up every once in awhile. However, I’ve become increasingly aware of how some people really don’t care what comes out of their mouth. Even though my feelings may get hurt, it inspires me to continue being who I am, while cutting anyone who doesn’t treat me the same out of my life.
There are a lot of bad people in the world, but there are also so many good ones. Be a good one, and the other good ones will find you.